enough said

so yes. its saturday all over again.
went to weight watchers this morning. i didnt lose or gain. which after the week ive had is lucky cos i thoughti would have put on.
so me and the parnaby are going out tonight to the barn. we has already started o0n the wine. tastes tasty:D tis gunna be a good night me thinks. sam says "ooohh it is" i think shes enthusiastic dont you.
she sezx that "were gunna rock that barn"
i think tis is highly likely.
i have to try out my new dress n stuff too. tis gunna be awesome.
errrrmmmm
what else is there to say/
oh yeah shaw is coming over next weekend from ireland to pay visitation. should be fun. we is going to get monged!
havent had blow in a while so im canny looking forward to it.
anyhoos i think thats all i have to say for now.
ta ta everyone
luffs yous

so got up about a half hour ago. i have a mission today. ive been soooo bored for these first few days and ive pigged out and been an idiot in regards to my diet. so today im going to realy pull my socks up on what i eat. im gunna have fish with boiled potatoes and mixed veg. then a chicken salad for tea. and my sister is coming over this afty so we can do our workout together. and im gunna do some packing in the garage. i thik i might go have some porridge or a slice of toast to start myself off.

i dont really have that much to say really.
ive been immensely bored recently. im off work for the whole week. i dont have any moneys to go see peoples. its totally piss taking.
i just got a bath and was reading for ages. twas quite relaxing.
i need to pull some strings on my diet. its been really hard for me cos boredom with me equals food and this is baaad. so im gunna not eat very much for the week and excersize like a mo fo so i lose ungodly amounts of weight by saturday.
i cant be arsed to type no more i think i might go watch a dvd or summat.

so yes. general minnie update
not really been doing much really
been at work last week. sams been getting jealous of amy cos me and her are getting closer. its strange,. i love sam to bits. i think were starting to see too much of each other though. saying that mind i was canny pissed off today. sam had promised me all week that we were going to go to the pictures tonight to see pirates of the carribean. we were going to meet up in hpool for 5 o clock with kay lou n sam but then it was ike 2 past 4 and kay texted me to make sure everything was still happening. by this time i phoned sam to see where she was. she still had alex. kyle was still there and i asked when alex was going and she said not till seven. this was when i blew my top and went offit at her cos the film started then. i shouted at her for a bit then hung up on her.
but yeh. mam gave me the money for the film and took me down so all was ok.
i started weight watchers tuther day..on saturday.
im feeling canny optomistic. i wnt to be a size six. nice and twig like.
anyhoos. im losing the will to continue typing. i think i shall give it a rest for now.
night night

and so he broke up with his girlfriend- he says to be with me but ive just heard from someone else that he wants a proper relationship with the other girl. so im gunna tell him no. i need to be confident that im not going to be cheated on. and at the moment i really dont. i dont think that hes finnished with christine for me. he has way more fun with laura...and shes prettier. im waiting for her to move in with him being honest...and yeah it will upset me...quite a bit...but it happens....
i was just speaking to leanne and i told her that i was considering "us" cos i know that she really likes me n stuff. and ive been feeling stuff but i dont know what to do.everything is so uberly fucked up its crazy.

so yeah. more confusion in the shape of men.
i really dont know what to do. like at all.
im missing him so much but i know its a whole self distructive pattern that i have.
hes been texting me daily. which is really different fo rhim. he never does that. im so confused as to if he genuinely does miss me or just wants me because im not there.
ive texted him some tonight. telling him about the confusion. its all gay.
i thinkim gunna go get a bath and chill out for a bit. have aread or something....

Current Music: within temptation - the howling

well. just got back from flamingo land aboot an hour ago. im absolutely buggered.
i went on the loopdy loopy rollercoaster and some other scary ones. i have documentation of my scaredyness in the shape of 2 keyrings!
so yeah saturday night we went out to the barn and things were a little extreme. i practiccally downed a bottle of wine before i went and i was monged. i sang the worst karaoke of my life!!! AND everyone was coming on to me. random dudes from all over the place. but i was a very good minnie and did nuthing. i was totally shocked when a certain married personage i know invited me back to his to "have a line of coke and the best head ever" to which i was thinking well, i dont do coke and i dont like head so yeah. what fun! at the end of the night i was pilatic and got peoples to take me home before i lost all self control!

just tried to make sam a myspace account ut the internetage is being gay. actually no. just myspace!!!
anyhoos i shall update when i can be arsed.

well im having a bit of a downer today.
self security and issues and stuffage have been plaguing my mind for the last few days. hit an all time low today like. dunno whats up with me.
went to sams on friday and had lots of fun. played on mortal kombat armaggedon for ages. im likig the character frost. she is cool.
im feeling quite ugly. i mean i normally think im ugly. but im feeling it extra today.
bahhhhh

well. just got home from a rather boring day at work. the queue on the fcking night was rediculous.
im so god damn bored.