Cobwebs And Candlesticks

oh the maturity

2007-07-05T21:40:26Z

enough said

its a saturday

2007-06-30T15:48:30Z

so yes. its saturday all over again.
went to weight watchers this morning. i didnt lose or gain. which after the week ive had is lucky cos i thoughti would have put on.
so me and the parnaby are going out tonight to the barn. we has already started o0n the wine. tastes tasty:D tis gunna be a good night me thinks. sam says "ooohh it is" i think shes enthusiastic dont you.
she sezx that "were gunna rock that barn"
i think tis is highly likely.
i have to try out my new dress n stuff too. tis gunna be awesome.
errrrmmmm
what else is there to say/
oh yeah shaw is coming over next weekend from ireland to pay visitation. should be fun. we is going to get monged!
havent had blow in a while so im canny looking forward to it.
anyhoos i think thats all i have to say for now.
ta ta everyone
luffs yous

when we start killing....

2007-06-06T11:53:01Z

so got up about a half hour ago. i have a mission today. ive been soooo bored for these first few days and ive pigged out and been an idiot in regards to my diet. so today im going to realy pull my socks up on what i eat. im gunna have fish with boiled potatoes and mixed veg. then a chicken salad for tea. and my sister is coming over this afty so we can do our workout together. and im gunna do some packing in the garage. i thik i might go have some porridge or a slice of toast to start myself off.

boredom

2007-06-05T22:03:34Z

i dont really have that much to say really.
ive been immensely bored recently. im off work for the whole week. i dont have any moneys to go see peoples. its totally piss taking.
i just got a bath and was reading for ages. twas quite relaxing.
i need to pull some strings on my diet. its been really hard for me cos boredom with me equals food and this is baaad. so im gunna not eat very much for the week and excersize like a mo fo so i lose ungodly amounts of weight by saturday.
i cant be arsed to type no more i think i might go watch a dvd or summat.

General Life Shaped Update

2007-06-03T22:31:46Z

so yes. general minnie update
not really been doing much really
been at work last week. sams been getting jealous of amy cos me and her are getting closer. its strange,. i love sam to bits. i think were starting to see too much of each other though. saying that mind i was canny pissed off today. sam had promised me all week that we were going to go to the pictures tonight to see pirates of the carribean. we were going to meet up in hpool for 5 o clock with kay lou n sam but then it was ike 2 past 4 and kay texted me to make sure everything was still happening. by this time i phoned sam to see where she was. she still had alex. kyle was still there and i asked when alex was going and she said not till seven. this was when i blew my top and went offit at her cos the film started then. i shouted at her for a bit then hung up on her.
but yeh. mam gave me the money for the film and took me down so all was ok.
i started weight watchers tuther day..on saturday.
im feeling canny optomistic. i wnt to be a size six. nice and twig like.
anyhoos. im losing the will to continue typing. i think i shall give it a rest for now.
night night

confusion - part three

2007-05-29T21:20:59Z

and so he broke up with his girlfriend- he says to be with me but ive just heard from someone else that he wants a proper relationship with the other girl. so im gunna tell him no. i need to be confident that im not going to be cheated on. and at the moment i really dont. i dont think that hes finnished with christine for me. he has way more fun with laura...and shes prettier. im waiting for her to move in with him being honest...and yeah it will upset me...quite a bit...but it happens....
i was just speaking to leanne and i told her that i was considering "us" cos i know that she really likes me n stuff. and ive been feeling stuff but i dont know what to do.everything is so uberly fucked up its crazy.

confusion...again

2007-05-28T21:16:28Z

so yeah. more confusion in the shape of men.
i really dont know what to do. like at all.
im missing him so much but i know its a whole self distructive pattern that i have.
hes been texting me daily. which is really different fo rhim. he never does that. im so confused as to if he genuinely does miss me or just wants me because im not there.
ive texted him some tonight. telling him about the confusion. its all gay.
i thinkim gunna go get a bath and chill out for a bit. have aread or something....

Flamingo Land

2007-05-27T19:32:28Z

well. just got back from flamingo land aboot an hour ago. im absolutely buggered.
i went on the loopdy loopy rollercoaster and some other scary ones. i have documentation of my scaredyness in the shape of 2 keyrings!
so yeah saturday night we went out to the barn and things were a little extreme. i practiccally downed a bottle of wine before i went and i was monged. i sang the worst karaoke of my life!!! AND everyone was coming on to me. random dudes from all over the place. but i was a very good minnie and did nuthing. i was totally shocked when a certain married personage i know invited me back to his to "have a line of coke and the best head ever" to which i was thinking well, i dont do coke and i dont like head so yeah. what fun! at the end of the night i was pilatic and got peoples to take me home before i lost all self control!

just tried to make sam a myspace account ut the internetage is being gay. actually no. just myspace!!!
anyhoos i shall update when i can be arsed.

bang bang

2007-04-01T20:47:12Z

well im having a bit of a downer today.
self security and issues and stuffage have been plaguing my mind for the last few days. hit an all time low today like. dunno whats up with me.
went to sams on friday and had lots of fun. played on mortal kombat armaggedon for ages. im likig the character frost. she is cool.
im feeling quite ugly. i mean i normally think im ugly. but im feeling it extra today.
bahhhhh

you just didnt drink enough to say you love me

2007-03-05T20:47:59Z

well. just got home from a rather boring day at work. the queue on the fcking night was rediculous.
im so god damn bored.

yay for alans

2007-03-05T02:20:04Z

well. im sat here and its late as and i still need a shower. im having lots of fun talking to alan about memories and stuffage.
its nice.
the crazeh thing is i dont like hartlepool anymore.
i went back on thursday and it was an alright night but nothing has changed. the same arguments. the same childishness. the smae people thinking theyre better than you.
just not what you need really
ive been hanging out in stockton for the last month or so. its realy nice. people there are just way more down to earth. i think thats what made hpool so bad for me the other night, the massive contrast of the difference between the people.
anyhoos. i cant be bothered to type no more.
i shall try to update more
loves
minnie

life is peachy

2007-01-31T21:23:46Z

well. im having a really nice day.
went to bed git late after talking bassey to death.
got up reasonably earlyish and went to work. work was well boring.the day went on forever but my spirits were high all the way through bearing im mind ive only had about 4 hours sleep.
got home feeling really really happy. then came on here,
and im still feeling happy,
it was wierd being at work without sam and joy today. i thought i woud be lonely but i hung out with peoples on the team and got on alright
people are seeming to flirt with me more. i think its cause ive lost weight. maybe cause ive been happier than i have in ages. fair enough i have my moments like last night when i was really grumpy but then yeah. its replaced by happy feelings of happiness.
ive started to go all horny again lately. just thinking about things and stuff makes me all excited and i cant help it. like at work i was sat just randomly thinking about someone and i get realllly really horny and it was so random i couldnt believe it. i mean in a call centre full of people. it was funny. i just sat n smirked to myself cause sam wasnt in so we couldnt giggle together.
jealousy is evil. i dont like being jealous. but sometimes my green eyed monster just rears its ugly fat head. it jumped out at me and said i hate youuuuuuuuuuuu. and then turned round and started stabbing the person i was jealous of. *this is all in my head of course*
bahhhh i need to liven up again. the come down has started and i refuse to be miserable!

bahhhh

2007-01-28T21:45:45Z

some things can be too complicated dont you think.
when you realise youve got something good and the opportunity is there but you dont snatch it and then like 4 months later the opportunity is savagely stolen from you and its your stupid fault in the first place for not going for it cause your too fucking scared. hands up if you know what im on about.
security is so false. how can one person ever be secure in their feelings or emotions about anything, its all so complicated and stupid and arrghhh at the same time.
maybe its so it isnt to easy ? if we had that security and happiness all at one time without working for it then would it be deserved??? maybe im being made to fight for what i want. and a nasty fight it would be. possibly even hair pulling.
if im not making sense its cause im going over things in my head and basically typing them as they come out,
i used to be scared of what people think. now im basically scared of people just toyying with me or even maybe worse. losing the thin that ive decided i really want.
*sigh*
what if the person i really want is like only caring for me cause he is going through a stage. and then i get tossed away? what if the person sees what im really like and doesnt like me anymore.what if im too fucked up to be able to get on with?
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
im going through all this work to lose weight and i can imagine at the end of it im still going to see an ugly girl in front of the mirror and all my efforts would have been pointless.
the person involved says he doesnt just like me for the way i look but for my personality and stuff. he also thinks that im pretty and will argue me to the death about it. now when i look in the mirror. i dont see what this person sees, so i automatically think what does he want from me. my personality cant be the only thing cause lets be honest. im not that entertaining. im a good laugh on a night out but anywhere else im boring work. i cant hold a decent conversation for shite and im thick.
i tried to tell myself one time that its not that im just a shit conversationalist. its because the right subject hasnt came up. but yeah even if it does ilose momentum to keep the conversation going.
yeha this post is bollocks
ignore me

ye good olde live journal

2007-01-25T00:05:41Z

well. this is me sirst post and i havent got anything very interesting to say. not really.
im justsat here listening to country music (the dixie chicks) being bored.
i put false nails on earlier. theyr light pink with glitter tips and pussy cats :D
im currently on a mission to lose weight. ive lost 5 punds in a week ...got a workout dvd and a yoga video. yoga does indeed hurt.
anyhoos. i cant be arsed to tpye anymore so yeah
thats it